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So Ashamed

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Published: Oct 17, 2010

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Literature Text

"You won't eat"
"You won't sleep"
"You won't get a grip"
"What's your problem?"

That's all they ever say
I lie "I'm just fine."
"No, everything's okay."
But, in reality
I go to sleep everynight by crying

My friends always saying
"Eat
Sleep
Than you'll be okay"
But, they don't realize
It never helps
Not even for a day

I don't think I am anorexic
Or an insomniac
I just have some problems eating
And sleeping just comes in
And goes out
It happens
Than it doesn't

I feel so ashamed
When my ribs are all showing
When my tears can't be hidden
And the scars on my wrist
Be ridden
What am I supposed to do?
When I look in the mirror and see disappointment
And failure too?

Just some feelings I needed to let out
Serious personal experiences there
These are how the thoughts in my head work
It was really quick
and mostly it should be completely accurate
or my mind is clogged up again
its true though or it should be 90% true
my mind is sort of hazy got 10000000 thoughts per minute.

maybe it was entirely true a few months back
i am getting better